But the 25-year-old reality TV star says she is currently happy being single.
She declared: "I’m not locked away in a relationship where I’ve felt a bit insecure. I’m getting the old me back that I lost.
"I feel good again. I’m the person I want to be again. I can’t stop smiling."
The brunette added: "When you’re in a relationship, you lose your identity. It’s always been 'Lauren and Mark' and now it’s 'I’m Lauren'."
The childhood sweethearts dated for ten years and even got engaged at one point before splitting last August.
Mark is now seeing US volleyball player Chelsea Rashoff, 22, after meeting her during his recent stint in LA filming new show Mark Wright's Hollywood Nights.
Meanwhile Lauren has been flaunting her bikini body in Marbella after dropping a dress size.
The Only Way Is Essex star was in the Spanish resort with her ITV2 castmates filming a one-off special episode of the show.
And Lauren was seen cosying up to a host of hunky men, which she believes would have irritated Mark no matter who he is now going out with.
She said: "Yeah, of course he will be bothered. I would be too, I won’t deny it. It’s a natural feeling.
"We’re never not going to care. We’ll always have that history."
Lauren, who was spotted at the same club as Mark last Thursday night, also revealed that they are still in touch, admitting: "Yeah, up and down. It’s difficult because we’ve still got a lot of feelings for each other, but it’s just not right."
However Lauren didn't rule out a reunion with Mark in the future.
She said: "At the minute, I’m going forward. If we were together, I don’t think we’d be able to do the things we want to do.
"Would he have gone off and done his show? No, he wouldn’t â€" it would probably have been me and him doing a show.
But she added: "Everything happens for a reason. Whatever’s meant to be will be."
Read the full story in this week's new! magazine - out today.
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